My guilt is mixed with my hope.
My hope mixed with my guilt.
My desire, is for his happiness.
My wish, is for it to be with me.
Reality, dictates that neither may happen.
For happiness is a moment,
A smile, a laugh on your childs lips,
The close proximity to the one you love.
A kiss, a hug, a surprise visit, a memory.
All of which we both have had.
All of which we can find while apart.
All of which I want to share, for a lifetime, with him.
None, of which I trully can.
7.5 billion people in this world.
Plenty of fish in the sea.
But the seas are drying up, as the sharks come out to play;
and my desire to go fishing, washed away by the storm.